RINGFINGER
Well you've got me working so hard lately,
Working my hands until they bleed.
If I was twice the man i could be,
I'd still be half of what you need.
Still you lead me and I follow,
Anything you ask you know I'll do.
This one act of consecration,
Is what I ask of you.

Ringfinger,
Promise carved in stone,
Deeper than the sea.
Ringfinger,
Sever flesh and bone,
And offer it to me.

You just leave me nailed here,
Hanging like jesus on this cross.
I'll be dying for your sins,
And aiding to the cause.

Ringfinger,
Promise carved in stone,
Deeper than the sea.
Ringfinger,
Sever flesh and bone,
And offer it to me.

Wrap my eyes in bandages,
Confessions I see through.
I get everything I want,
When I get part of you.

Ringfinger,
Promise carved in stone,
Deeper than the sea.
Ringfinger,
Sever flesh and bone,
And offer it to me.
Ringfinger,
Promise carved in stone,
Deeper than the sea.
Ringfinger,
Devil's flesh and bone,
Do something for me.
~Nine Inch Nails

I am in a lot of pain right now...as per usual. I want to make everything better and I have been trying, but my efforts are pointless. He says he is in pain, and I would love it if he found it in him to turn to me if he needed someone. Too late now because his plan is to not see me very often for the next while. Ouch. Now I have no one to turn to and I am further alone. He apparently made efforts to be my friend...ok, when we went to a movie on Friday, he acted like he didn't want to be around me. Since we have moved out he has showed some indications of this and it is really hurting me. I want things to return to the way they were...but that is just a memory. I am so good at fucking things up it's not even funny.